It was a very cold week in early December. Some parishioners asked
Father Ignatius if it was all right to build a Christmas crib in the car
park as well as the one usually set up in church by the Altar.
The intention was to build a small wooden hut made of old wood they
could pick up cheaply from the local saw mill; and then decorate it, and
use the Nativity scene statues which they discovered in the store room
deep in the basement under the church whilst they were cleaning it in
summer.
Father Ignatius agreed, “as long as you don’t ask me to lift those heavy
statues from the basement … they’re quite heavy you know. So be
careful!” he said.
It’s amazing how sometimes a chance remark or a word spoken in jest can lead one to think something anew or with a fresh point of view.
Father Ignatius was helping with the dismantling of the Nativity scene in church and putting away the various statues safely for use the following Christmas. One of the helpers lifted the statue of the Virgin Mary and remarked: “Look at her face. She looks sad. It’s as if she knew what was to happen to Jesus when He grew up.”
“She’s probably tired after giving birth,” replied another helper.
“No … she looks sad, not tired. Do you think she knew that Jesus would be crucified Father?”
Our priests need prayers. Priests are challenged as satan seeks to
tempt them and devour their souls. They are the first line of attack
that satan wages on our church. He knows that without our priests, we
have no sacraments. We have no Eucharist. Evil seeks to destroy our
church. Without priests, we have no church. They are the roots of the
vine that Jesus planted when he chose Peter as our first Pope and the
apostles as our first priests. Without prayer, priests are unarmed in a
world of sin. We need to pray for our priests!
I offer this
suggestion when praying for priests. Adopt a priest for a year or for a
life time. Pray for that priest. Pray for him as if he were one of
your family, one of your children. Gather together as a family and pray
a rosary for your priest. When you cannot gather together, pray for
this priest yourself. Offer three Hail Mary's a day for him. He is one
of our Mother's beloved sons. Offer up your sufferings for him. Pray
for his strength. Pray that he have a burning love for souls. Pray
that he be given energy when he's tired. Pray for him to see Jesus in
every soul.
After Jesus had spoken these
words, He looked up to heaven and said, "Father, the hour has come;
glorify Your Son so that the Son may glorify You, since You have given
Him authority over all people, to give eternal life to all whom You have
given Him. And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only
true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent. I glorified You on earth
by finishing the work that You gave Me to do. So now, Father, glorify
Me in Your own presence with the glory that I had in Your presence
before the world existed.
If you are like me, or the hundreds that Pope Francis asked, you might not know.
But we should.
And in his words, we should celebrate it as "our second birthday". After all it is the day God forgave us from our sins and welcomed us into the Church.
Yes, I really do. I need to bring myself closer to God. He waits in
the silence of my heart for me to speak. He stands there as my Lord and
Savior. His arms outstretched on the tree. Yes, I really do need to
pray more. For He is My God. I am His Child.
I need to
remember the patriarchs of old who worshiped God in the deserts, valleys
and hills. They followed his commands. He was their God, and they
were His people. They were loved and cherished by the One Who created
all. He was their great I AM.
Our hearts stop beating. Our lungs no longer fill with air. Our
bodies cease to function. Our immortal souls are released from our
bodies. We enter into eternal life, and our souls leave our physical
bodies. We only take with us, that which we are.
Reports from those who have returned include tunnels through which the
soul flies at speeds unknown on earth. Lights are brighter than any
here. Colors are vibrant and living. Colors that have never been seen
are visible to the soul who has left the body.
You will become a saint if you have charity, if you manage to do the
things which please others and do not offend God, though you find them
hard to do.
- Saint Josemaria Escriva (1902-1975)
Where there is no obedience, there is no virtue; there is neither
goodness nor love. And where there is no love, there is no God. Without
God, we cannot reach Heaven. These virtues form a ladder; if a step is
missing, we fall down.
In Matthew 22: 15-22 we have the wonderful incident where Jesus confounds the Pharisees who set out to trap Him with the question, "Tell us therefore what dost thou think, is it lawful to give tribute to Caesar, or not?" Jesus takes control of their narrative with his divine answer, "Render therefore to Caesar the things that are Caesar's; and to God, the things that are God's."
As a small child I was completely in awe of how Our Lord escaped their trap. I still am. He was surrounded by evil pressing in on Him, and not for the first time by a long shot. Yet He had no fear and showed all of us how to triumph over those who would tie us firmly to the vision of worldly power alone. He drew attention to the fact that Caesar has earthly power, but that God also requires a rendering quite apart from what is owed to Caesar. And what is it to be rendered to God?
St. Hilary of Poitiers says “We are bound to render unto God the things of God; our body, soul, and will; for the coin of Cæsar is in gold, in which his image is engraven; but God’s coin is man, in whom is the image of God.”
St. Bernard of Clairveaux says, “Render unto Cæsar the penny which has Cæsar’s image; render unto God the soul which He created after His own image and likeness, and ye shall be righteous.”
What belongs to Caesar is perishable, consumable, able to be destroyed, and of only temporary value. What belongs to God is of eternal value, imperishable, unable to be destroyed. This alone should show us how to think about what Caesar demands of us and how we should respond, where our priorities of choice should lie, why Caesar lacks the power to authorize the killing of the innocent of any age or to attempt to reign in our God-given liberties of conscience. When Caesar tries to invade God's territory, he has gone way out of bounds and we, who belong to God, must recognize our nobility of being by virtue of being created in His image and likeness, and act on it. Moreover, what is true of us is true of every human being on earth, even Caesar who will one day face his own reckoning with his Creator.
Our Lady of Fatima asked the three children to pray for poor sinners so they do not go to hell. Indeed, in praying for them we are praying for the coin of God, that it be returned to Him and placed in His treasury of the saints forever.
. The fact that we will go through tragedy and suffering, in our human lives on earth, is a given. But lest we get too caught up in our own sorrows, let me remind you that our Lord would only need to utter one phrase to put it all in perspective ... "Want to trade?" .
Every moment of our lives is permeated with the Presence that loves and bestows. To live in faith, means to be able to see this loving and constantly bestowing Presence. . . . Every moment of our lives brings us His presence. Every moment of your life is a moment of meeting with the Presence, that is loving you. . . . . God links grace to each moment, be it an easy or a difficult one. . . . everything that happens in your life, is linked with some kind of grace. . . . It is extremely important for you to believe in this constant Presence which manifests itself in various ways. . . . If you would believe that you are always immersed in the merciful love of God, who never abandons you, then it is certain that you would never fall.Everything that you experience is linked to the love of God who loves you, and to His desire for your good.(See Romans 8:28) -- Father Tadeusz Dajczer in The Gift of Faith under "To Perceive the Loving Presence" in chapter 1.
Tout est grace. Translated: Everything is grace.-- St. Therese of the Child Jesus.
There is not a moment in which God does not present Himself under the cover of some pain to be endured, of some consolation to be enjoyed, or of some duty to be performed. All that takes place within us, around us, or through us, contains and conceals His divine action. . . . The books the Holy Spirit is writing are living, and every soul a volume in which the divine author makes a true revelation of his word, explaining it to every heart, unfolding it in every moment.― Jean-Pierre de Caussade, The Sacrament of the Present Moment
Some moments are easier to perceive God's presence, in us and in those we love. Moments like holding your newborn, or just a newborn, especially a newly baptized newborn. Moments when we feel our hearts stirring within us (see Luke 24:32) while reading Scripture, or hearing the preaching of someone filled and in prayer and communion with the Holy Spirit. Moments when we are blessed to experience the holy death of someone passing from this world into eternal life to behold forever the beautiful and glorious presence and to feel the embrace of our awesome and loving God.
Then there are the moments when those in our own homes or in our workplaces or in our churches or our childrens' schools or on the road to those places, do things or say things that evoke frustration, anger, even wrath. Then do we sense God's presence? Then do we perceive the loving, dwelling presence of the Holy Spirit within our souls through the grace of the Sacrament of Baptism and confirmed in us by the grace of Confirmation or, in the case of non-Sacrament-receiving believers -- through the repentance and forgiveness of sins received through the "Sinner's Prayer", which may be equivalent to the Baptism of Desire (CCC #1259), or through the Baptism of the Holy Spirit (see Acts 1:5)?
I don't. I want to. I am praying I will, but I don't.
This past Saturday night I had a little battle with my younger daughter. There was a preceding battle, this past Friday morning, the second day of their private Christian school, when she was defiantly wearing something non-compliant with her school's dress code. Actually both her shirt and her pants were against the rules. The little battle lasted probably 20 minutes. I'd tell her to change. She would not. I would express that she had to change, had to obey, had to follow the rules, and she would not. I dressed her. She got undressed and back into what she had been wearing. I took away the shirt and hid it, she said she was just going to stay home from school. Finally she did end up wearing a dress that was officially too short, but I let it go because at least it wasn't skin tight like the "jeggings" she had on.
Now on Saturday evening she was breaking her bedtime rule. She is supposed to be in bed by 10 p.m. She was not and because she was also late going to bed the night before and was up early, she was overtired. She was fighting with her sister and was refusing to sleep either in her bunk bed or in my bed, since she shares the room with her sister. I would not have it again. Defiance. Rebellion. Disobedience. Disregard for my parental authority in favor of her autonomy. I was filled with anger and yes it was in the vicinity of rage.
She claimed her strained arm, injury of 1.5 months ago, was hurting, so I left the room and the confrontation with her to get her an ice pack, wrist brace, and ibuprofen. My mother-in-law had been sleeping in the upstairs bedroom, but sometime during my elevated vocalization, and my daughter's crying, she woke up.
She came out of her darkened room into the hallway and grabbed my arms lovingly, gently, and said, "Colleen, can I help you?"
I brushed past her, shaking free of her hands, and said, "No. I have to find her wrist brace. Her wrist is hurting."
She said, "Fine," and left me alone.
So how is a Mother-in-Law or at least how was my mother-in-law in that moment like the Holy Spirit?
It is obvious to me after my morning meditation, that dovetails so nicely with my second read of the The Gift of Faithand the quote from St. Therese that was in a email from my parish priest this morning, as well as being included in the "To Perceive the Loving Presence" section of the The Gift of Faith. The Holy Spirit has these little repetitions, and complementary sources of his teaching for me, and for many of us, because it takes this orchestration to make an impact on us.
My meditation today was on John 14:22-31 inclusive of the verses
23Jesus answered him, ‘Those who love me will keep my word, and my Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.
25 ‘I have said these things to you while I am still with you. 26But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything, and remind you of all that I have said to you.27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid.
Father Bartunek, in The Better Partprovides food for meditation on these verses, of which I bolded the parts that were physically played out by mother-in-law last Saturday night:
The Holy Spirit is like our own personal trainer, but instead of honing our physique, he polishes our love, our holiness, our very hearts. Unfortunately, we often forget about him. He is polite, he knows he is only a guest, because even though he created us, he completely respects our freedom. And so he waits for us to listen to him, to ask him for guidance and strength. And if we listen, he will teach us, just as Christ taught his disciples during those years when they walked together through the hills of Galilee and Judah.
Then he provides a prayer for us to offer to our indwelling guest, the Holy Spirit of God:
Wherever I go, you are with me. Whatever I do or say, you are with me. Whatever I look at or think about, you are there within me. I believe in you. Yet I have to ask: Why am I not more aware of you? Grant me that grace, Lord --teach me never to walk alone.
I believe in you, Lord, but help me to believe more fully. Help me to believe so completely that my life and yours become one. In all my activities, conversations, and relationships, I want to live and communicate the joy and peace that only you can give.
My personal prayer:
Father God, Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit --- I trust in you! I know that you have given me the gift of faith, the gift of loving you, and the holy desire to know, and love you with a purer heart, and to have the grace of unceasing recollection - attention to your indwelling Holy, and Loving presence in my soul. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for my mother-in-law! Thank you for teaching me that in that moment she physically showed me, in a way my senses and memory could not dispute, a gentle, loving presence that wanted to help me. And what did I do? I pushed past her and refused the help. I certainly didn't ask her for it. In my anger, on the brink of rage, I did not in any moment come against the spirit of anger and disobedience that were active in the confrontation between me and my daughter . . . . anger on me, and disobedience on her. Not to mention the selfishness involved in both of us wanting our way. I am too immature and too lacking in the virtues of gentleness and self-control to succeed in moments like this, and yet I have the loving, gentle presence of God within me and I don't turn to you for help. Thank you for the teaching, please help me to do better next time! Please forgive me, and please do help me! In Jesus's Most Holy Name, and in your name Yahweh Sabaoth, and in the name of the Holy Spirit, I ask these intentions, Amen.
If you would believe that you are always immersed in the merciful love of God, who never abandons you, then it is certain that you would never fall. -- Father Tadeusz Dajczer in The Gift of Faith under "To Perceive the Loving Presence" in chapter 1.
If you have repented, and have experienced God's presence, and you are in a "state of grace" then you should be confident that the Holy Spirit is with you, and that you are immersed in the merciful love of God who never abandons you, even when you are sinning, and even when you have sinned. What is affected if you are not in the state of grace, is your ability to perceive his holy, loving, life-giving, and wise presence. What should you do if you don't think you are in the state of grace? The Didache, an early Christian document written about 70 A.D. (70 years after Jesus was born, in the 1st Century) states regarding Holy Communion:
"Whosoever is holy [i.e., in a state of sanctifying grace], let him approach. Whosoever is not, let him repent (Didache 10). . . But first make confession of your faults, so that your sacrifice may be a pure one" (Didache 14).
The Didache is only 99 cents on Kindle and takes less than an hour to read. It is quoted in the Catechism of the Catholic Church. If you are Catholic and you want to grow into a state of unceasing recollection as I do, it helps to frequently receive the Sacrament of Confession. For any Christian, Catholics and non-Sacramental believers, it helps to have frequent examinations of conscience and acts of repentance, rather than to walk our Christian life recipient of the cheap grace that includes only forgiveness of sins, but not the repentance that St. John the Baptist and Jesus preached.
“Cheap grace is the grace we bestow on ourselves. Cheap grace is the preaching of forgiveness without requiring repentance, baptism without church discipline, Communion without confession.... Cheap grace is grace without discipleship, grace without the cross, grace without Jesus Christ, living and incarnate.”― Dietrich Bonhoeffer, The Cost Of Discipleship
May we all be brought by the Holy Spirit, and by our docility to his teaching and internal transformation to unceasing attention to the fact that we are, at every moment--the good ones, the tense ones, every moment immersed in the merciful love of God, and sustained by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit! May this help us grow in the gift of peace that Jesus gave us, that we would trust in him and not let our hearts be troubled. (See and meditate on John 14!)
Saint Padre Pio wrote to one of his adopted children:
Don't let temptation frighten you. God wants to test and strengthen your
soul by it and gives you the strength to overcome it at the same time.
Up till now your life has been that of a child but from now on our Lord
wants to treat you like an adult. However, the trials of adults are far
superior to those of a child and that is why you are so upset to begin
with. But the life of your soul will quickly settle down; it won't
delay. Be patient a little longer and all will be well.
So let all these empty forebodings drop. Remember that it isn't the Evil
One's suggestions that put you in the wrong but rather your consent to
those suggestions. Our free will is the only thing capable of good and
evil. But when our will is groaning under the trials inflicted on us by
the Tempter and does not desire what he proposes, then not only is it
not a fault but it is a virtue. Take care not to fall into anxiety when you are struggling against these
temptations because that only serves to strengthen them. You have to
treat them with scorn and not worry yourself about them. Turn your
thoughts to Jesus crucified, his body laid to rest in your arms, and
say: “Here is my hope, the source of my joy! I bind myself to you with
all my soul and will not leave you until you have set me safe.
Certain people, places, or things may be occasions of sin for us. If possible we must avoid them. But sometimes, as with people we live or work with every day, we are forced to interaction. In that case, if we are feeling anxious or fearful because we know a certain person triggers a negative, sinful, reactive response in us, we must change something in ourselves. We must stop giving these people the power to control our emotions. This is where St. Pio points us to the use of our free will and the practice of virtue.
We might ask ourselves, what virtue must I acquire in abundance in order not to fall prey to these temptations? Then we can turn to Christ and ask Him to help us. As we change ourselves, we will do a better job of resisting temptation and perhaps even shape better relationships with the problem people in our lives.
Father Ignatius was busy in his office dealing with some paper work when Eric, a young man in his mid-twenties, came in.
“I’ve changed the oil Father and gave the engine a good run. It’s as good as new.”
Eric
was a car mechanic at the local garage and every now and then he came
over to the parochial house to maintain the priest’s car and undertake
any minor jobs that needed doing.
“Thank you” replied Father Ignatius, “I’ll await the invoice from your boss in due course.”
“Oh I see you got that picture of Jesus …” said Eric pointing at the wall. “The boss has the same one in his office at work.”
“It’s
very popular …” mumbled the priest hoping that the youngster would soon
leave. He had plenty of paperwork to get on with and he could really
not afford the time for a chat.
“Did He really look like that?” continued Eric.
“Who?”
“Jesus … did He look like that? This is the picture painted by that nun isn’t it? What’s her name?”
Father
Ignatius put down the letter he was reading and turned to Eric. It was
obvious that although he wished to get on with his work the Good Lord
had other plans for him.
“Her name is Sister Faustina. Her real name at birth was Helena Kowalska.”
“Greek was she?” asked Eric making himself comfortable in the armchair near the window.
Father
Ignatius took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes with his right hand,
as if to summon every ounce of patience that the Good Lord might send
him. “Why now, when I’m busy,” he prayed silently.
“No Eric,” he said with a smile, “she was Polish.”
“That’s right; I knew it was somewhere foreign. Near Jerusalem where Jesus came from …”
“Not quite near Jerusalem …”
“And
she actually saw Jesus and painted Him. That’s what I have been told.
Do you believe that?” interrupted the young man eagerly.
“Well …”
“I mean … she could have been lying. Can you prove that she actually saw Jesus and He looks like that picture?”
“Despite
my age,” said the priest abruptly, “I can assure you I was not around
when Sister Faustina was around. So I can’t actually prove what you ask
for.” He then immediately regretted what he had said and continued in a
more gentle voice.
“Look Eric, we are told that Sister Faustina
back in 1931 had a Vision of our Lord. She saw Him dressed in white and
standing very much as in the picture there. From His heart rays came
out, one red and another pale, as you can see.
“The Lord spoke to her and asked her to paint an image according to the Vision she can see and to write ‘Jesus I trust in you.’
“And that’s how we came to have this picture."
“Oh …” said Eric.
“Now you and I have two choices to make,” continued the priest.
“We can believe this is all true. Or we can believe she was lying and nothing really happened.
“If
indeed the story is true, and we chose to ignore it, we would have lost a
great opportunity to venerate the image of Christ; as He has asked us
to do when He spoke to Sister Faustina.
“And what a great pity, and tragedy that would be! To ignore a request made by our Lord Himself.”
“I see …” said Eric pensively.
“Our
Faith has a number of mysteries Eric,” continued the priest in his
gentle tone, “things that we are invited to believe without any proof
and without any evidence. That’s why they call it Faith. To believe in
something when your common sense tells you otherwise.”
There followed a few moments silence whilst Eric digested the information he’d just heard.
“Does Jesus appear and speak to people these days too?” he asked finally.
“I
believe He does,” replied Father Ignatius, “He certainly spoke through
the Holy Spirit to Father John Woolley. Here, you can borrow his book …”
Eric picked up the book handed by the priest and read the title, “I am with you.”
He then asked, “Jesus performed miracles when He was on earth … Does He do so now? Do miracles happen now Father?”
“Yes
… they do. Miracles happen every day to a lot of people. The sad fact
is that too many are not willing to believe that they happen.
“Christ is alive and is amongst us now as He ever was. He speaks to us and guides us through His Holy Spirit.
“But hearts have hardened Eric. Plenty are not willing to believe.
“They
may consider themselves Christians or Catholics but they don’t know
what to believe anymore. They just go through the motions by going to
church and by claiming they’re Christians.
“Christianity is not
just a label Eric. Or a brand name. It is real. Christ is real and is
alive today as He ever was. It is not an event that happened two
thousand years ago which we commemorate as a Remembrance every Sunday.
Christ is alive and here today. He is here in the Eucharist; He is here
in the Holy Spirit who abides in our very soul, if we let Him. If we
invite Him …”
Eric hesitated for a while and then asked “I’d like to really believe in all these things Father. I don’t know how …”
“That’s a good start … wanting to believe. Opening your mind and heart to the Lord.
“Pray
about it. Ask God to help you believe. If you like come and join us at
the Bible classes we hold every now and then here at the Parish center.
“Ask for God’s help and leave the rest to Him.
“Say what you can read in that picture on the wall, ‘Jesus, I trust in you’ and mean it every time you say it.”
Note: I am with you. Author John A Woolley ISBN 09508840-7-3
A few weeks ago I was assisting with video taping the testimony of a woman that aborted her second child. I'll have the link to this video below. She had been raised Catholic, actually in a Catholic orphanage, so she knew that abortion was the killing of a baby, and she had not been deceived that what was being aborted was pregnancy tissue, so she knew even as she drove there, waited in the waiting room and laid on the steel table as the procedure was done, that she was having her unborn baby killed. She just thought there wasn't any other way. She was divorced from her husband and she could barely support the first child they had together.
She mentioned there were no crisis pregnancy centers then, back in 1973. There were no sidewalk counselors. She wishes now that there were.
She says how her friends and even her ex-husband tried to cheer her up, from what followed: a very long lasting depression. She would go out with friends drinking and such but essentially every night finished the same way, for 20 years, with her crying herself to sleep.
Not everyone with guilt from sin cries themselves to sleep, but there are some who do know this prison of guilt, sadness, and sorrow.
Some of us let our minds be taken back to our failings, when we hurt others, or simply repeated the first sin in the garden, believing a lie that we could know good from evil, and think and do what was pleasing, or expedient for the god of self rather than surrendering to the will of God, and falling at his feet as Mary did (see John 11:32), but instead deliberately choosing to do or to enable sin to happen. Sin that caused pain for others, including the pain of the Savior during his passion.
There was something I learned at some point and then was rather clearly written about by St. Ignatius in his teachings on the discernment of spirits. Dwelling in guilt is a state encouraged by evil spirits that want to keep us from the peace and joy, and abundant life that are Christ's gift to us. He has already won the victory, and already suffered the penalty of our sins. We can and should feel sorrow and regret for our sins and failings, but we should refuse to let them distract us from the goodness and love, the forgiveness and mercy, the healing that Christ wills for us.
If something keeps us from rejoicing in our salvation (see Psalm 51:12) due to Christ's obedience and love,
If something keeps us from knowing the freedom that comes from surrendering our hearts daily and throughout the day to the sanctifying grace of the Holy Spirit,
If something keeps us from the confident trust that no matter how badly we screwed up, how hurtful and damaging and far reaching the effects are from our sin, the truth is we are loved, and blessed,
then that something is not from God!
That something is being orchestrated by those fallen spirits that followed Lucifer out of heaven and are at war with the children of God as described in Revelation 12. That something is keeping us from a fuller experience of the love of God so necessary for us to grow in faith and to bear fruit for our Lord and King.
Yes, we are weak, we are selfish, we are proud in our intellectual myopia and encouraged by the secular, moral relativism of our peers and society. Yes, we have been given much, the Gospel has been read to us and hopefully preached to us in words and by the example of those God puts into our lives, and yet we sinned and continue to sin.
But the thing I am trying to get those of you to know, those of you like Maria in the video to know, is how much Jesus truly loves you. He suffered not just out of obedience but to pay the price for my sin and yours, no matter how serious, how grave, how undoable, how awful that sin and its effects are.
Maria said at one point in filming the video that she still feels the guilt from the abortion. I asked her does she mean guilt or regret, because I think that is a key part of her testimony. She agreed it was regret now, not the guilt that imprisoned her for so many years. She went on to explain that when she responded to an altar call the counselor told her all her sins were forgiven. Her question was whether the sin of abortion had been forgiven. And the counselor told her, "All of your sins." This sin of her abortion had been confessed many times, but she still had that question if it had been forgiven.
Now, she believed God forgave her, but it was still many more years before she forgave herself. She still regrets the abortion as she thinks about how that baby is the missing sibling in her older daughter's and younger daughter's lives and the missing aunt or uncle to her grandchildren. They needed that person in their lives and they are missing out because she had the baby killed.
So, the regret lingers and surfaces. Still, she is free now. What does that mean? She describes it as finally accepting that Christ's sacrifice was to bear the guilt of her sin, and accepting and believing and trusting in his love meant forgiving herself too. She says the door to leave her prison was open the entire time, but it was years after responding to the altar call that she finally walked through that door and accepted the healing.
Only this past year did she begin speaking about her abortion. She told the leader of our Prolife club at school, and then was asked by him to tell her testimony in the high school chapel. She then began attending our Saturday "Witness for Life" visits to two abortion clinics in the Chicago area. Her granddaughter, that she is raising as her own child, comes with her. You'll see her in the video too.
Are you prone to experience guilt for your past sins and do you want to be free of it?
What is keeping you in that prison of guilt and shame?
Do you want to be free of it?
Recently I noticed a verse reference written in my daughter's yearbook by a friend. I wonder if her friend wrote it there because she knows we are Catholic, and she is taught that Catholics, just like Martin Luther, are paralyzed in their guilt. This is why they use the word "Liberty" in the naming of their schools and churches. The verse really provokes much thought:
12as far as the east is from the west, so far he removes our transgressions from us. (Psalm 103:12)
First thing that hits me is this is in the OT - the Old Testament. It isn't Ephesians or Romans or Galatians. This is back during the time of King David. Yet here is God saying he removes our transgressions from us. Now, in the light of Salvation History, we know he does this through God becoming incarnate of the Virgin after she was overshadowed by the Holy Spirit, and then as the Lamb of God, (prefigured by the sacrificing of unblemished lambs exemplified in the sacrifice of Abel, later the sacrifice of Abraham in place of Isaac, by all the Israelites the night of the Passover, and then established for the Israelites by Moses at the command of God) suffered torture, persecution, bore the punishment in his soul for our sins as he hung powerless on the cross, and died.
You know what? God wants us free. He loves us and wants us to walk out of the prison of guilt, and jump into his arms like St. Therese described so beautifully:
The depth of her spirituality, of which she said, "my way is all confidence and love," has inspired many believers. In the face of her littleness and nothingness, she trusted in God to be her sanctity. She wanted to go to heaven by an entirely new little way. "I wanted to find an elevator that would raise me to Jesus." The elevator, she wrote, would be the arms of Jesus lifting her in all her littleness. (Guy Gaucher, The Spiritual Journey of Therese of Lisieux, p.2)
God taught me more about this through my youngest two children. My daughter will misbehave in some way, and it soon becomes a battle of wills. She stays entrenched in it, gets angry and pouty, and will not accept a hug or anything to try to bring it to a quicker and happier end. Eventually, usually after she gets a nap, or some other means of a longer timeout, she does accept the hug, and all is better.
My son, on the other hand, as soon as he does something he knows is wrong and he shouldn't have done -- could be hurting me, his sister, wrecking something in the house, he very soon, almost immediately, realizes what this has done to our relationship, and gets very sorrowful and wants a hug and kiss.
Now some of you may be saying my younger son has me wrapped around his finger, but let's get back to my point! He is very confident in my love for him, and my forgiveness when he comes running into my arms.
That is what I think Jesus meant about becoming like children, and is the core of St. Therese's spirituality, that she learned as a child jumping on her earthly father's lap, "Fortunately I could go home every evening and then I cheered up. I used to jump on Father's knee and tell him what marks I had had, and when he kissed me all my troubles were forgotten...I needed this sort of encouragement so much."
2He called a child, whom he put among them, 3and said, "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." (Matthew 18:2-3)
So if the devil, the evil spirits want to keep you from jumping into Jesus's arms, and thanking him for his victory over evil, over sin, and for bearing our guilt, do you want to do what they want, or do you want to walk out the door of the prison of guilt that has been open for you all this time?
Walk through, and experience the lightness and joy that are yours, because of the love of your God: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit!
My words are not as helpful as meditating on scripture. As Jesus so perfectly put it:
"If you make my word your home you will indeed be my disciples, you will learn the truth and the truth will make you free." (John 8:31-32)
So let's start now, and please join me in committing to read the Bible every day! This is what Billy Graham would say when looking into the TV camera during his crusades, right after leading people in the sinner's prayer. "Read your Bible every day!"
Please pray to the Holy Spirit, and slowly read and absorb the love and truth in Psalm 103 below.
Here's quick prayer to the Holy Spirit:
Come Holy Spirit! Come at the most powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well-beloved spouse.
10He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities.
11For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
12as far as the east is from the west, so far he removes our transgressions from us.
13As a father has compassion for his children, so the Lord has compassion for those who fear him.
14For he knows how we were made; he remembers that we are dust.
15As for mortals, their days are like grass; they flourish like a flower of the field;
16for the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place knows it no more.
17But the steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him, and his righteousness to children’s children,
18to those who keep his covenant and remember to do his commandments.
19The Lord has established his throne in the heavens, and his kingdom rules over all.
20Bless the Lord, O you his angels, you mighty ones who do his bidding, obedient to his spoken word.
21Bless the Lord, all his hosts, his ministers that do his will.
22Bless the Lord, all his works, in all places of his dominion. Bless the Lord, O my soul. (Psalm 103)
Receive the unfathomable compassion, and mercy, and blessings of our God---Sovereign, Holy, and Loving! This means forgiving yourself too! Wouldn't it grieve our Lord whose compassion and sacrifice of the Lamb of God have made you free? Jump into his arms, just like the beloved child that you are.
When you-know-who encourages you to indulge in guilt, tell him, as Jesus did:
23“Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; for you are setting your mind not on divine things but on human things.” (Matthew 16:23)
I think Mary's recent post at the Beautiful Gate also helps us learn the true humility, and peace that comes from trusting that the Holy Spirit is working on us according to God's will and timing.
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